Dear Ward,

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Dear Ward,

Today is the day that you turn one. I can’t believe that 365 days ago today, your daddy and I were heading to Cartersville to meet you. I can’t believe that it’s been 8,760 hours since I first heard you cry. I have heard you cry so many more times since then, but thankfully, I have been able to learn how to soothe most of your cries. It has been 525,600 minutes since I held you for the first time. That was the best/most exciting/most terrifying moment of my life. It was wonderful because in that moment, I loved you more than my heart could stand, but it was terrifying because you could have been taken away from me at any minute. You see, your birthmom was the one who held all of the power at that point. At any second if she decided she wanted to keep you and raise you as her own, she could have. I would have admired her in that, but good Golly I am glad she allowed us to have the honor to raise you. I can’t imagine life without you, Pal. I know that one year ago, I had a life without you, but now, I can’t remember it, or if I do remember it, it seems so pointless. Ward, you were not only my child. You have been my saving grace, my bright spot, my way to pass time, my source of constant happiness, and last and not least, you have shown me a physical representation of God’s faithfulness and hope. When you were five days old, I found out that I was having another baby(brother). At first I was worried that having another baby would cause you to not be my “baby” any longer. Since having our brother, I have realized that you and he will always be my babies, no matter what age you are. Today is your celebration day, Pal, but it is a day I will always celebrate. This day is more important to me than my own birthday(which means a lot) because this is the day that you made me a Mom. I love you so much, Dubby!

Love, Mama

 

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